The prof had made a mistake. He had missed out a couple of pages of my exams. That's going to be more than a B.
Except it's only a dream. There's no exams for this module. I'm still in shock. Still mulling over it. Still feel robbed. How can I be one of those at the rock bottom for the comms class? Not especially when he lavished praised on my presentation. 'Natural speaker'. That's what he said.
I've got a real bad feeling he missed out on one of my written assignments.
Is this a test or someting?
It feels like you had 3 glorious years with someone, only to come to an ugly ending. C+. One is enough to kill off all the As.
Yea. I shouldn't be complaining since I got 3As.
But C+ for comms is like robbing me of a B+ at least.
As they say, it never rains, it pours.
What is so dangerous about being in a long term relationship is like running a business.
You pump in lots of time and effort. But as we all know by now, efforts never equal results.
You probably end up bankrupt after running a business for 2 years. Who gives a damn about the lessons learnt in this failing this time round. You feel like a fucking loser who can't manage anything, not even yourself. You'll be thinking: I'll just fucking work for someone else.
But then by now, you are already so used to being the boss. You can't get used to being a worker. Your friends had already probably left you when your rich, snobbish and too busy for them. You're all alone.
Now, let's not carry the metaphor too far off.
We all know that people change. Obviously 2 years provides lots of space for growth, positive or negative. Can 2 people still be dating happily together given their changes? What if one grows out of another?
Next, let us consider the relationship as being stifling growth. Perhaps love manifests into over protection and prevents one of the party from developing. Perhaps such love is then more destructive than constructive. Perhaps then, this love should take on other roles.
How about both parties growing so used to having each other such that carrying on the relationship is a habit or a routine? Then the problem must lie with the guy. Why? That's because it is usually the guy's fault at being not giving her enough surprises etc etc etc.
What about the Law of Diminishing Returns? Apply it to love and you'll see decreasing returns although you're pumping in more efforts. You get really jaded.
Relationships are real fuck ups. It's like playing with the stock market. You don't know how much you'll win or you'll lose. You can't even be sure of what happens tomorrow.
Lonely people seek companionship in a relationship. Yet people who are in a relationship seek answers.
The point is, these answers only come when you step out of a relationship. Yet relationships are unlike toilets: you can't step in and out as you please.
Incoherent text. Messed up structure. Like my head. No wonder I'm the fucking loser with a C+ for comms.
Too many bad days make a bad week. Too many bad weeks make a bad month. Too many bad months make a bad year. Too many bad years make a miserable life.
Stop fucking whining asshole.
